We all had a dream about life, it was a short dream, a dream that in reality lasted less than two hours, we blinked and we were gone. I always wondered about if I die tomorrow, what would be the legacy I will leaving? I don't know, I know our existence is erased from the collective consciousness in around 100 years. 200 years if we have an exception life and the resource to fulfill an economical legacy. The what we do today has repercussions on a long term,
We do not know what the tomorrow will bring, and when our last day will but we can live every day as if it was the last one, to live it fully and to be happy that even if is there isn't any mythical purpose for our existence we can implement compassion in other people and animals, without expecting anything back, think of the power of connection and what you can achieve "even if you don't have a physical legacy, you can change people, you can influence your communities and after that a bigger change will come, because is not about the money but how we are all interlocked"
I have surgery of my molars tomorrow, I am anxious because I have previous experience in hospitals that involved bad of parental care when I was younger, I get anxious even if is a day surgery and I know what to do to recover, I have my hours to skip work for 7 days and don't do anything heavy, but I fear the worse and that comes from years of repression and abuse that had channelized in to every time I go to a medical practice. I remember one day when I got one of the hepatitis vaccines and my mother out of nowhere when she was driving back with me, as I was underage "Nobody can't say anything because you are vaccinated" the words always stuck with me and even after 1\3 years of leaving and not going to Cartagena, I still remember the location.
Words have power, they transcend time and even when is been over 20 years since that moment, I still remember it and is one of the many, I am scare of tomorrow because even with insurance I can't linger the image what I associate health care with. I hope I will be OK, I know I shouldn't be scared, but still...
Lately I been reconsidering some of my old habits of Youtube, and I love commentary channels, but Quinton Reviews got my attention to the full extent because Quinton dead pan non-sequitur humor, honest approach and their image that can relate to so many geeks and dweebs around the world is so relate because they look like good friend you had across the street and the two of you sit down to laugh and tell jokes while playing video games and probably that's part of their appeal.
Is the ability to relate to essentially every common geek online, that it makes him endearing but also there is this mystery that surrounds them but it rather goes on trivial pop data than anything else that is more substantial, Quinton is somewhat of an enigma surrounded by their love of Garfield and collection which progressively expanded over the years but also is their sense of humor that caught (at least for me) people's attention.
I found his channel by mere accident about a month ago, maybe it was a nostalgia trip that hit me while I was looking for old Fred's videos and my surprise I found this one and I was introduced to Quinton's Fallen Titans series, which as a viewer gave me another perspective on Fred and it pointed the dark side of the character that was involved within the original run of Fred opposite to the iCarly cameos, which outside the screaming annoying voice, and the constant non-sequiturs Fred is quite a dark early Youtube series that involves a six year old with a drug addiction, who is subjected to a toxic life by his prostitute mother and predatory behavior by trespassing his neighbors house.
Curiosity as well binging on Quinton's video for over a month let me to find more information about them, and there is nothing, nothing at all, nothing relevant, no interviews, no nothing besides his own self-referential Fallen Titans video. There is no information on Youtube Wikia besides him saying on a video that they occasionally check the website, other piece of information seems to show their pronouns from one of the video (but I forgot to save it, and I been binging on them too much) which said The Force is Strong in They/Them which gives another hint but no overall confirmation either and some of his Garfield videos that reveal some of their personal information and how they got in to Garfield when they were a child.
Same as going through their Twitter and some Youtube videos, his hate for Donald Trump and that they supported Bernie Sanders, and one random photo that popped on Google seemed that they worked on Dollar General as well; but the general information to create a template profile is scarce which adds more to the mystery who is Quinton Kyle Hoover and I would love to do a full interview on them one day because they are one of the most interesting people in the Youtube stratosphere.
Últimamente me han llegado las memorias que tenía hace varios años, pero fue
cuando siento paz que logre volver a escribir en castellano otra vez, una de
esas memorias que me han llegado ayer ha sido con el programa Venezolano Bienvenidos, que
toco a diferentes generaciones en Latino América ya que con el humor irreverente,
pero al mismo tiempo mostrando al mundo lo difícil que es hacer un programa de
humor en medio de una emergente dictadura.
El programa fue concebido por Miguel Ángel Landa a principios de la década
de los Ochenta, y posteriormente en 1982 fue lanzado en Venevisión pero
el programa piloto fue originalmente ofrecido a Radio Caracas Televisión donde
fue grabado con actores del canal pero alrededor de 1981 RCTV rechazo la producción
del programa y fue entonces donde Landa se enfocó en ir a la cadena rival que contó
con la aprobación inmediata y el primer episodio fue transmitido en mediados de
1982 - honestamente en este punto pienso que los archivos de distribución
fueron borrados o extraviados debido al régimen, si alguien tiene datos de la producción,
pueden dejarme un mensaje con su email y les respondo lo más pronto posible-
Honestamente
buscando los episodios, los he encontrado alrededor de YouTube, algunos de
ellos están bloqueados, pero en su gran mayoría me da la impresión que los
primeros episodios de Venevisión están perdidos con el tiempo.
El
primer episodio lo encontré en YouTube, al menos lo que creo es que el primero
ya que el entró y la cinematografía muestran los 80's y vagamente recuerdo a
Yulika Krauz en uno de los primeros episodios, si lo quieren ver y está
bloqueado en su país por derechos de autor, usen el navegador Tor que hace
milagros con sobrepasando las fronteras del IP.
Otro
aspecto que tengo que mencionar que estoy usando los recursos que encuentro en
el Internet y me da la impresión que página de Wikipedia y la Wiki de los fans
de Bienvenidos están incompletas ya que comparando videos de las primeras
temporadas no hay un registro oficial y publico de los actores del programa al
igual que el elenco de producción, que van hasta el final del programa con la
productora Televen que honestamente no consigo información concreta y me encantaría
saber que ha pasado con la mayoría del elenco de la serie original y del
relanzamiento a lo largo de los años.
Probablemente
el programa no tendría la acogida que tuvo en su momento debido a que las
sociedades cambian y el sentido del humor evolucionan, pero uno nunca sabe; en
el 2015 Miguel Ángel Landa trato de revivir el formato pero investigando más a
fondo, honestamente no encontré nada más que un solo artículo de la Republica
Dominicana en donde Landa hablaba de castings que se iban hacer en la isla pero
no hay más nada, al igual que los actores, honestamente es difícil encontrar
alguna información referente online.
El
legado del programa sigue ahí, sigue en el colectivo de la gente, pero se ha
vuelto más una sombra de un producto que estuvo vigente hace unos 19 años, pero
en las últimas dos décadas quedo en el olvido, al igual que la mayoría de los
actores. La pregunta que me hago es ¿puede haber otro Bienvenidos? un
relanzamiento de la franquicia en tiempos en que la gente está clamando por
nostalgia, pero adaptar el programa en tiempos modernos y ver como los contratos
con Venevisión se pueden cambiar para que las propiedades intelectuales de
Miguel Ángel Landa y ver al Loco Hugo, la Beba o Enrico una vez más en la luz
del día y en pleno siglo 21.
A friend of mine introduced me to The Bunny The Bear group, reason was "I call my husband the bear (like the slang for big, hairy guy) and for some reason that stuck to that friend of mine who about a year later send me out of nowhere the music video Aisle which was my first exposition to The Bunny The Bear and it hook me up.
I will talk the little bit I found out online about the group and the evolution on the sound, and essentially is the brainchild of Matthew Tybor (The Bunny) from arrangements to everything and it follows an experimental path and a rotative line-up that change certain amount of years. As the first Bear (Chris Hutka) there has been several over the years, which probably has let more options to experiment towards music as every single bear had a different key and way of singing.
It was Chris Hutka who got my attention, not because I enjoy tall big, hairy guys (which maybe I am a chaser but it also goes on the aesthetic) but because his voice had that falsetto, high keys that are somewhat popularized with Adam Levine but Chris voice wasn't forced as Adam, almost as a polyvox but also his stage presence as I can't really think of many mainstream musicians who fit in to a bear archetype taking out any who play on the queercore circles.
I haven't contacted Matthew Tybor (The Bunny) because from what I read online, there was some of rift and I respect the privacy of the individuals, but what baffles me is that essentially there is nothing of Chris Hutka, there are some traces of Instagram, the Twitter accounts I found seem to be abandoned by almost a decade, Facebook accounts seem to be inactive, there aren't any recent Youtube videos of any of his accounts by almost 9 years as well and there aren't news of him at all.
Talking about videos, I found two; the first one is somewhat sad because as far I seen that's Chris and Hayley (one of the Bears) appearing on Jerry Springer around 2 years ago, the episode is still online and is somewhat of a mess to watch because there are two talented people acting like buffoons even with all their talent, is somewhat cringe to see it.
The second video is also recently where Chris is singing a cover by Saosin, but beyond that there is nothing else that is recently, which is almost as an enigma because there is nothing at all, like he vanished from face of the universe, especially on these days that is easy to track people due the influence of social media. I am curious because I rarely stumble in to something as this where trying to find information about the artist is difficult but I assume not impossible, and the last piece of professional information comes from Wikipedia that states that Hutka was going to release an LP on 2017 but it seems it never came.
I haven't wrote in a while, but again I feel the necessity as my others skills had come back, on a similar level reading has been another that has come back at the same time as the one mentioned before as well illustration and continue pursuing my education which I start again in the next up coming week.
That little advertisement/ page holder is from an old book store in Cartagena - Colombia that was present when I used to live there, the name was Bitacora and everything that is left at least online is just an old Angelfire page that I opted to save because there aren't any visual media saved from 15 years ago online, and after the façade of the last location that I ever visited 14 years ago, is completely different and it seems that it closed a long time ago.
Bitacora was located in San Martin Avenue, on the last two incarnation that I remember, the two buildings are still there, and it was always close to the sea - it was a magical place for me, because I could escape whenever school was done for the day but also during the holidays since I was always happy back then being surrounded by books.
The place I always remember it that it was cold, the air conditioner was always on but it was pleasant - it had a rustic interior that give it some Caribean vibes but also a portal that was open for a world of magic in an enviroment that was already somewhat surreal, I always enjoyed going there because it was an experience for the senses but also an escape from the house and a moment where I could refresh from the heat and get a new book.
I didn't found a library when I move to the States that I enjoy myself but for a long time I was also trying to recover the pieces of who I was (in a value that could give something meaningful) to who I had grown in to, albeit now in a new city I had spotted several smaller libraries that are in a similar vibe as Bitacora and they inspire me to continue reading and buying books, but for 9 years I didn't read anything besides when I tried to go to school but not out of leisure or by interest without any responsibility.
I do not know what I am going to do with this blog or the others I have, I need to find more topics to write or essentially to write about nothing. I had recover my love for photography and illustration, but as well to improve my knowledge which were aspects of my core I didn't tackle for almost a decade because I couldn't relate to them or feel them as I used to. My motivation to do arts was related to my feelings of loneliness and desperation and having to find a new point that didn't involved sorrow or any other emotion but rather more related to my core.
The process of recovering was ardeous, I know I am more in touch with my emotions, to who I am without being part of a family but rather my own self, without any pretension that were influenced by someone else through the use of force. That little page holder from Bitacora brought me memories because after being shun by my parents and losing a lot of personal items a simple item in paper brought me joy when I found it again.
A simple item that made me realize, the happy places can change over time but the happiness comes within, and that was what Bitacora meant to me and still does, only that the physical place is not there anymore but it's within my memories. I am still thinking what I can do with my blogs, what direction I want to take them, my other products as well, I do not feel I lost the time where I wasn't active but rather it was a moment in time where I could take care of myself and let the creativity and my true art to flow without restrictions.
At this moment is 11/25/2020 when I am writing this entry, and it's been 31 years, a little bit over 31 years since the disappearance of Tiffany Louise Sessions - much of the reason I been writing cold cases as Tiffany is because of an old interest when I was a working journalist that I wanted to help family close a chapter in their lives with the departure of a loved one.
I been reading the resources of her case for over 3 months, at least the public ones but I haven't try to request any police information on documents because there was enough coverage over the years about Tiffany's disappearance and honestly they say a lot. I am probably going to be writing more about the case within the next couple of weeks, because everything that leads and the scene of her "vanishing" is still standing up in Gainesville.
We have to set our timeframe to 1989, Gainesville wasn't fully developed yet there, still isn't because of the zoning laws regards the city but back then the complex that Tiffany was living with her roommate is still there, and comparing photos from the decade of the 80's and early 90's the area of her vanishing hasn't changed that much, even walking it it's essentially stuck in time minus a few new projects over the last 30 years.
On 1989 early 1990's Casablanca East Condominiums are hasn't changed, it was mostly on the east side and Williston Road wasn't as developed, but had houses around that you could walk and still see your neighbors around, the problem is the witness reports couldn't identify her whenever she was possibly abducted, and there is no information on the public records if she had notes about people blackmailing her or she was suspicious about being followed by anyone.
Reports say she left her personal belongings on the house, she mentioned she was going for her daily night walk to her roommate but after she never came back the alarms where sound; witness mentioned that a woman with the physical description of Tiffany was seen going in a car with some unidentified individuals but is a lose tie, now if we focus on Paul Eugene Rowles the convicted serial killer who kept a book of where he committed the murders it match with the disappearance of Tiffany as his second victim and that he was working as a construction worker in one of the projects not far away from her residence.
Assuming Paul also roamed the area on his car, he probably studied Tiffany habits before aiming at her, same with the area in case he need it to dispose a body, Paul died in 2013 and I believe the police is correct and he is the main suspect, the problem is none of the neighbors could confirm the car as well the people inside, and there is difficulty to see any cars that Paul owned versus to whatever the testimony of the witness said. I don't think Tiffany left her life because there were family issues or she had any other issues, her background itself seem stable enough and she was career oriented.
The main point is to know how far away within the roads of 1989 Paul Eugene Rowles took Tiffany away, and if he knew exactly where alligators sat or in what reserve he could dispose her body without leaving any evidence especially because Gainesville is not a big city per se, but it had plenty of places to dispose a body and leave no trace.
There is Millhopper's, Micanopy, Waldo, the north side of Gainesville on MLK which is still roughly undeveloped, and around all of these places there are gators on the waters, I don't think at this moment there is a body that can be recovered because is long gone, same as the belongings of Tiffany they could had been dropped, stole by people who were cleaning the road and found a Rolex but who knows? The case still doesn't connect with the evidence or testimonies at least what is found on the public records.
I had played this game on a few occasions, but thanks to the wonders of ROMS, I been rediscovering a lot of the old games I used to play back in the early 90's and late 80's, Also as time passed by I been rediscovering the joys of my talents and hobbies, and starting to illustrate and one my loves had been video gaming because it was a form of escape but also entertainment.
I loved TMNT as many kids in the 80's and 90's did; my first exposition wasn't the cartoon itself but rather on a corner store o tienda del barrio, the owner had in the table the first two issues of the original comic and I was mesmerized, because the 6 years old me loved the super action and gore inside the issues - about a year later I saw the cartoon and even if it was different it got my attention.
You have to think those days we didn't had Internet at all, the only medium of information we had were related to Club Nintendo and any other PC Magazine; but one day when I went to a play date on the house of a friend, he suddenly had this game of the Turtles and I was fascinated because it was the first time I saw one in my life, and it wasn't until age 35 that I would play for the first time the og arcade game, and still the love of the franchise makes me smile.
The game wasn't like the cartoon, it was more close to the comic books than anything and as the comic books the game is brutal, for 3 decades I been thinking how the developers (Konami) could do something as difficult within only 2 Megabyte cartridge - opposite to today as the ending of 2020 where games go up to 20 Gigs and more, a lot of them don't contain the level of difficulty that this game has, this is as precursor of Dark Souls on is own splendor.
You as a gamer have to think that now we have a system or forgiveness within gaming, that let players go unscathed or at least learn form the mistakes, that system wasn't on early gaming, I guess the first time ever was with the Konami Code which is a beautiful accident, but let the players enjoy the gaming by "cheating' and probably the best way to enjoy this game is with save states, you could say it doesn't have the same satisfaction as defeating on an honest way but some games they don't really need to play to suffer, but play to see the little tricks the developers used to make it difficult whenever the resources where scarce.
The Hudson River level is the most popular one, but overall the entire game is difficult, and is difficult not only because of the level designs but rather on how wonky the time reaction on the controllers was, you could die so easily by hitting by accident the pad and swimming against the electric weeds but also any jump could kill you, the enemies respawn quickly just like Ghouls N' Goblins and you couldn't breath.
It's a nightmare to play it but it's incredible because it has a lot to offer and tells a story whenever the consoles were still young and developing in to bigger games but it contains a story and it doesn't flank with the pace.
The music is vastly different in the game from the television, but also it match more the tone of the comics rather than the happy setting that the cartoon offered for 7 seasons before it turned more grim - there is also something more charming within on how dark this game soundtrack is because you can feel the frustration within the levels but also it encompass the grim vision of Eastman and Laird work with the early comic books of the Turtles.
I am trying to situate how this game being one of the first marked a generation, but at the same time it's a product of is time - there was no other reference for the Turtles back then before the sequels that adapted a lot of the visuals from the cartoon and became more funky and playable rather than the first home console game.
The curiosity with this release it was that inside the game we have the Turtles with their respecting Tokustasu in which it marks somewhat their personalities but leadership, albeit on the box it goes with the red bandanas for all of them, but the most weirdest thing was the localization in Japan where they turned April in to Splinter's daughter.
The more I see the game and research about it, I think it was misunderstood at his moment because of the mixed reviews, but at the same time I think the game itself was one of the first games produced and developed by Konami whenever franchises were relative an unexplored territory on the video game real and is interesting because if it wasn't for games like TMNT that were a peak of his time and X-Men just to name two we wouldn't have too much of third party intellectual properties that were developed on other mediums before going to video games of being developed exclusively for the consoles instead of bringing an adaptation.
