Tuesday, January 20, 2015

Las Mentiras de Neru y el Por Que Uno Puede Negar Quien Es Solo Para Encajar

Siempre lo diré; no soy religioso, respeto hasta cierto punto respeto las ideologías religiosas pero cuando comienzan las personas a imponer su religión sobre otros, y a causar daño por hablar mierda, ahí mi percepción cambia.

El tema de la sexualidad e identidad de género puede ser complejo; parte de la experiencia es en experimentar para reafirmar la identidad, pero la negación en orden para complacer a otros o negarse a ver quién es uno, puede ser extremadamente dañino.

La religión no ofrece una solución para cambiar parte de la identidad, uno nace, y uno no deja de ser quien es por convertirse al Cristianismo o cualquier religión. El problema es la negación y pensar que siguiendo ciertos rituales uno puede cambiar quien es, pero se puede confundir con comportamiento no deseado, pero al final es solo simple ausencia en algunos casos en otros es ser víctima del ambiente.

Es algo complicado pero al mismo tiempo se puede trazar como una línea de abusos por parte del ambiente; negar quien es uno y tratar de cambiar una parte inherente del ser puede llevar a la depresión y al suicidio, y en un menor caso puede llevar a un comportamiento en donde se hiera a más de uno.

El problema en Colombia, al igual que en ciertas áreas de extrema derecha en los Estados Unidos es que en las sociedades donde los grupos religiosos influyen en el desarrollo psicológico social, y pueden ser participes de violencia intrafamiliar debido al rechazo parental pero al tiempo insolando a los individuos. Tal como fue en el caso de Leelah Alcorn a finales del año pasado.

Neru como figura central de la derecha religiosa, usa la excusa que ser víctima de un abuso sexual siendo niño fue la culpa de sus males, y que en Dios se puede cambiar quien es uno, en orden para conformar una familia. Uno nace, uno el ambiente lo moldea, pero desde que uno nace uno ya tiene ligadas a quien uno va a amar; y hay diferentes formas de conformar una familia sin la necesidad de la clásica interpretación Bíblica, en donde la mujer se tiene que subyugar.

No culpo a la religión como un total, solo a una partida de fanáticos que denigran a la comunidad LGBTI, y a Naru Martínez que todo lo que ha hecho es hablar mierda sin analizar lo que le está pasando y el camino que está tomando; porque si analizamos en la escatología Cristiana, Cristo no odiaba, es mas por los seis versículos en donde se condena la homosexualidad en el Cristianismo, hay otros 36 mínimo para los gentiles y los heterosexuales.

Un caso que siempre me resuena en la cabeza es el de la Evangelista Tammy Fae, se volvió un icono de la comunidad LGBT en Norte América cuando se divorcio de su esposo Jim Bakker; perdió todos los beneficios cuando se aparto de Praise The Lord Club (el programa fundado por su esposo) y termino en la calle, en donde la comunidad LGBT la acogió, sin importarles que esta haya sido una de las fundamentalistas del reavivamiento de los años 70 en Norte América.



Los Baker dieron a luz a dos hijos Tammy Sue Bakker y Jamie Charles Bakker; el cual sigue los pasos de sus padres, pero tomo un paso mas alla del conformismo de la derecha, y tomo mas un punto en la lucha social e igualdad de derechos; hasta el punto en que celebro con un pan teñido de arco iris cuando en Minnesota paso el matrimonio igualitario.

Uno no deja de ser homosexual, uno siempre es quien es, hasta el dia en que uno se muera; pero en el caso de Neru hay esta su ignorancia mezclada con un problema de identidad en el cual no se puede aceptar quien es, y culpa a un supuesto abuso sexual. "Lentes de contacto, aretes y demás. “Me escondía sobre una máscara, utilizando  lentes de contacto, pelo largo, colores”. "Un abuso sexual cuando niño lo indujo a seguir “ese patrón, no conocía otro”, anotó sobre su homosexualidad.

“Ni mi familia sabe esto. De niño, yo tenía 6 o 7 años, cuando asaltan tu niñez, abusan de ti, y sigue ese patrón, eso fue lo que conocí, seguí el patrón que no era el mío”, señaló. El abuso sicológico, viene en gran parte de la familia, en cómo te tratan y en como uno aprende a manejar el dolor, y en saber que uno no está solo, pero las declaraciones de Neru no ponen a la comunidad LGBT en ridículo solo ponen a su persona en ridículo, ya que esta jugando con sus quince minutos de fama para que se extiendan a veinte.

Y si mi quieren llamar cualquier nombre, resentido, o lo que se les venga a la cabeza; adelante, pero si quieren usar debate como herramienta, usen algo mas allá de - Dios dijo, - porque ese discurso se hace aburrido
Enlances

http://www.elespectador.com/entretenimiento/arteygente/gente/toda-triste-historia-de-neru-seria-llevada-al-teatro-articulo-538964

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_PTL_Club

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jay_Bakker

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_XVy88x63yg

How Far Away Is It.?

How Far Away Is It.?
By: Gustavo Simmons

Sometimes I look at the stars, and I wonder where you are,
It's so hard to find you, where the skies tear us apart.
I still try to define myself, into the man I want to be.?
There were a million pieces shattered around the globe,
and my elastic skin melted  into a new being.
Another life that was perfect,
and I was broken;
You didn't broke me, but you helped to fix some of me.
A thousand lights come from my electric skin,
who traveled along the unspoken road.
Why I can't seem to find you,? There has to be some power in your heart.?
I was broken;
You didn't broke me, but you helped to fix some of me.
A thousand lights come from my electric skin,
who traveled along the unspoken road.
Does love bites the dust.?
I don't want anything; because I can only trust you.
A hundred frames per second,
where my hands move as in the days we were used to know;
let me close my eyes,
and just remembered I walked through fire just to save my life.
It's hard to lose a chosen one.
I'm still fighting in my being,
there are no words to say how I miss those moments with an elastic heart.
The car stops,
I stop wondering where you are.

I am still trying to find myself, I got in a electric cross.

Sunday, January 11, 2015

The Endless Stairs

The Endless Stairs
By: Gustavo Simmons
Vanessa was walking back and forth, as if someone was following her. She didn't remember how long she was going down, or at least up. Every single was the same. Two doors on the side, one elevator facing on the south wall and a set of circular stairs that connected to a seemingly opened door, that was interconnected to a trash chute that was stuck.
Every couple of floors Vanessa could heard a strange melody, it was in a child voice "tururu" all over and over until the tune faded. The elevator seemed to be functional but no matter how many times she called in, it never came. The doors seemed to switch on design every couple of floors and they reset.
The walls were perfectly white while every floor was with rubble. It was an exquisite design but yet futile. She was wondering, who she placed it inside the contraption.? It was an elaborate trap, and she was still wearing her regular clothes, albeit she was hesitant into throwing her stilettos away as they were killing her feet.
She screamed once, as many times. Nobody answered but she could heard the echo of her voice. She was alone in the labyrinth of stairs. She was repeating the same number again 701 as well 702. It was the seventh floor, but she lost track on how many times she walked through the same numbers, or how many hours had spent there.
For certain moments she found food that was thrown on the floor. She knew there should be people behind the doors, but she got tired of knocking and screaming at them.
A brief glimpse of her life came; she was a student, a high school student; but, she looked too old to be a high school student, at least she felt old. She saw her reflection on some of the doors and she felt she was old.
As she walked by, she reached the end of the stairs. After the eleventh floor, there was the twelfth. She reached a point where she saw the engine of the elevator and there was another door. The door was open, and she didn't hesitate to go by.
She realized the world she knew was in chaos; it was destroyed. How can she forgot.? A woman wearing a white hazmat suit appeared behind her. She looked at her as if she was a ghoul. The woman smiled at her, and she got close to her.
They didn't exchange words. The woman pulled out a small gun a shot on a blank point on Vanessa's head. She died instantly.

- Experiment 2-A101 has failed. Subject, escape was completely unnecessary, albeit I found out that the outside world no longer posses high levels of toxicity for humans to walk with the suits

Thursday, January 1, 2015

The Silent Age Episode Two Review

Intro for Episode Two
What is fantastic about The Silent Age is that through the use of a minimalistic approach, the game has an amazing story line and a fantastic retro style.

Episode Two, left where Joe was looking for the younger Dr. Lambert in order to find answers to the mysteries of time travel. The narrative expands up to the point it's almost as a science fiction novel.

The problem the game has, it's the game story ends too short, and there are no possible information on the company's website if there are going to expand it with more episodes.

Dr. Lambert's House
The central theme of the game, as many of the players should know by now it is time travel, and the possibility of developing different paradoxes, as well the game places conditions on how time travel should be executed.

It's fantastic how the story can be quite complex as it well mixes with the struggles of the Cold War, biological warfare and corporate espionage which were common elements on the peak of the Cold War.

The graphics of the game are quite beautiful, and they continue with the style of the first game where it gives the atmosphere a retro feel, as if the player was trapped within the time period. The graphics aren't even cartoonish, but they give an value to the game as if the developers tried to emulate the retro-futuristic funk of the early 1970's.

Everything has a beginning an ending
 There are some answers that are gotten when the episodes move forwards, such as a Predestination Paradox and why you can't escape death, even if you know where you were going to die.

Probably is true; you can't escape death, even if it means to defy the singularity moment but yet the rules of altering the past aren't uniform, and probably if we learn how to travel back and forth in time, it will be only from point A (Where the process was finally developed successfully) to point B (any certain point on the future) and yet only to go back to point A, but never being able to go beyond point A because there is no point C (before the time travel was developed) as we would need an anchorage in time to secure our own existence.

Back on the Beginning
The only element that the game leaves in a vague state is the origin of the virus; which the player can speculate is airborne as Joe has two possible contacts with individuals who could be infected, his former co-worker Frank as well Dr. Lambert; since both were time travelers; which also the games gives a hint that the virus essentially kills the individual in less than a day period.

The second chapter cost US$4.99 and is available on the iTunes App store as well on Google Play. I hope you enjoy.

Wednesday, December 24, 2014

The Beauty of Growing Up is To See the How Strong We Are

We learn to be responsible of our own actions, and we learn how to face the consequences of our decisions. As I get older, I realized even with all the problems that we face in life, life itself is not that bad and it can take a lot of effort for you to be assertive and happy with yourself.

It is easy to say it, than to do it, and everyone has their own insecurities but there are ways to overcome them. Also, there are people who no matter what, are going to be miserable with their own existence because they don't know anything else.

Growing and learning are intrinsically united, and learning how to live with the past is an essential component to feel comfortable with your own skin and life. There will be moments, when you feel that you are stuck in a one way lane, is only up to you to find the strength to move forward and you will have really amazing people around you, that will support you without any conditions.

Unconditional support is a key element, that you will know you will have someone special on your side; it can come from anyone, from friends to co-workers. Those are the people that will become your family and the people you should value, because there is no significant aspect in life that can equal to "I'll be there you."

Also, there is no price whenever you can say "I can do it, and I will finish it." As every year pass, you will be your own best friend and will be your own support, and you should be your own best reason to never surrender in life, because you are here and even fro a cosmological point of view we can be just a mere evolutionary mistake, we are here and we should make it count.

2014 was the year where I finally said "I am happy with who I am," It took me 30 years to say those words; but, also I finally became comfortable with who I am, and I am just human, with all my faults, I am just human. Some people forget that, that we are humans and because the nature of their egos they think they are better than anyone else, or think they are above the law.

It takes a lot to face the world, and it can be overwhelming; you don't need to fear when there is nothing to fear. Probably the biggest gift I got every year, is that I am being loved; and everybody whose intentions and soul are noble shouldn't be punished for who he or she is. I don't need anything material for Christmas, I have everything I wanted in life since I was younger.

I wish you the best not only for next year, but also for the rest of your lives; live fully, as if you were living your last day. Know and treasure the people, who truly love you. Because, those are the elements that can surpass any Christmas gift, and make any day special.

To anyone who read this, you have a friend in me.

Gus

Sunday, December 21, 2014

Pam Bondi and Rick Scott An Open Invitation To My Wedding

Pam
Hate is a strong word; but is someone who knows Pam Bondi, I want to let her known that I will find a way to send her and Rick Scott, personal address as well work addresses.

The reason, I am sending this openly is to show there are fields to make amendments and to show there is room to move forward.

In 2008 I moved from Colombia to Florida; against my will, as I wanted to move to NYC or California; my parents decided that it was the best for me to live with a so called relative that they never met; because according to my mother, she thought "that homosexuals were full of AIDS, and they were second class citizens," she didn't knew how much on those six months; all because my parents, were convinced that being in a house, with a marriage who'd been together for 30 years was for my best. Bullshit.

I suffered discrimination, I became homeless and I had another episode of depression. One of many, that came back and forth, all because my parents actions. I came to be free, because I believe the American Dream is alive in the hearts of the people who came and are living here; but on 2008, with the Amendment 2 which defined family; I also feel ashamed Charlie Crist but he has shown that you can evolve your views and closed minded

You are on your third marriage; I am going on my first; I would say I am nervous, because I am on my first, but I guess you are a pro of being in your third, and be able to say you defend the sanctity of marriage and traditional values; but Attorney General, what is the sanctity of marriage.? When you are on your third, and what are traditional values.? When we are not in the Post-War America, and we are on a point where not even close to the days of the patriarchal society. Who knows,? live and let live, especially when you biased your point of views based on your religious belief and not on defending the best interest of the people you represent.

Maybe, the people you represent are some of the narrowest minded individuals who voted for you; but yet we are in the segment of the population that are under your wing. If you or Rick don't do any low movement, I would say I will go to Tallahassee and give you, using the proper channels an invitation to my big, fabulous, interracial, bi-national gay wedding that I hope it will be at Magic Kingdom on Gay Days; because let's face it, what more fabulous can be to have a bunch of bears singing a jamboree, a wedding on the happiest place on Earth.? Finding forgiveness to the people you hurt and making peace with your enemies.

Friday, December 19, 2014

The Santa Claus Time Loop Paradox or Why Children Can't Realize the Multiple Implications of This Little White Lie

Santa Who
I'd loved science fiction and fantasy since I can remember; my parents tried to persuade me that "Baby Jesus" was the one who placed the gift, or Santa if you are in the Northern Hemisphere.

One a small anecdote, I knew around my fourth birthday that my parents and grandparents were the ones; the reason was, my mother had some serious flatulence issues and I overheard her pass midnight cursing about the farts, and why she ate too many empanadas at the social club.

After that realization, I always wondered, if the myths were real, we could compare them to actual theories of relativity, age of the planets and in some other way time travel.

The idea that someone, can travel to 2.2 billion homes in one single night, is essentially impossible. Unless that person can turn Earth into a single physical loop, with the ability to manipulate the curvature of time-space in order to please every children desire in the world.

The problem is, if he goes back in time, he won't be able to go back into the present where he departed, because that present won't exists; thus breaking the Novikov principle. Thus, turning five minutes into a millennium of giving gift to at least 1,000 children. Then we have to take issues, such as Santa breaking into the home security systems, not being detected by the wireless cameras, that if the children today decide to steal their parents phones; or at least hacked into it they can have a proof of Old Man Kringle, and probably create a series of paradoxes where he has a way to find to conceal his identity.

Maybe Santa could be the prototype of the Renegade Time Lord, that appeared in 1963 on the BBC; maybe Santa is just an unique Earthly being.

Let's analyze another aspect, besides the time travel paradigm, business. The tradition of the North Pole started on 1897 by Thomas Nast; who is also credited for introducing the imagery of the modern Santa, which is also tied to his career as the a political cartoonist, which he is also regarded as the "Father of Modern American Cartoon." which we analyze, that the modern Santa, not being a mascot of Coca Cola Enterprises but rather a representation of the time it was created, a mere political statement of the traditions and the social climate of the civil war.

Eventually Santa evolved beyond his early modern origins, from a time where a cartoonist was trying to give some hope, and the idea became a lucrative business. Santa's modern origin was located in the North Pole, but with an every growing population surpassing the 8 billion people, where at least 3 billions household are Christians, and at least 1.5 billion have children who believe in Santa Claus, and there are at least 1.2 billion children who he has to give them presents.

It's just fuzzy and lovable the idea; where a child can't comprehend the lie, but Santa's business model has to turn into a multinational corporation of shipping and handling, who has a consortium with all the toy makers and electronic companies of the world.

Santa has to diversify his operations, because the magical elves won't be able to meet the dues, so at least Santa's central would be located in the North Pole, where he will direct operations but the merchandise will be sent through a series of subsidiaries around the world, to fit the customers different needs, much as FedEx.

Because, even if Santa has dominated time travel, he would be in the need of the help to satisfy at least 1.2 billion children tantrums; but again if Santa learned how to dominate time travel, we could use the Second Law of Thermodynamics to simply explain why life on Earth seemed to survived a quasar explosion that probably annihilated a huge chunk of life in the universe, and delayed the evolutionary process of new intelligent life; all because Santa engulfed the entire world into a physical time loop and saved billions of people all because of the presents.

If children had the moment to think at least on the fantastic side, but at least realiticly speaking they will realize that none of them are Virginia, and that there is not a Santa Claus; but, if they analyze a little bit further, they will realize that Santa itself is trapped in a corporate nightmare, where at the moment the elves decide to unionize and claim healthcare, after hundred of years of not getting any primes, Santa would be so screwed.