Thursday, April 25, 2024


I'm writing again and is been a slowly but steady process, I spend 2 weeks in the hospital last month due pneumonia and having fluids in my left lung. I turned 40 also three days ago and between all the madness it gave me a perspective in life towards the paths I had taken within education and painting.

I haven't paint or create anything in two months, part has been money to keep the subscription of Adobe valid and the other part I was really sick that I couldn't sustain the idea of enjoying my hobbies or even get clean shaven. Those two weeks in the hospital took a toll on my health where I lost weight in a short amount of time and lung capacity.

When it started I woke up gasping for air on the first day of Spring Break, I couldn't breath and had to ask my partner to take me to the emergency room as quickly as possible as I was having respiratory issues. In the ER, it showed that I was having a tachycardia and my hearth rate was extremely high.

From the ER I ended up in the hospital, I have to confess I remember some of it because much of the time I was asleep due it was difficult to stay awake. Is interesting how much you can care about your personal hygiene when you are sick and how much you care about you being clean after you start feeling better.

I didn't showered for 12 days and when I was back at home I took a long shower and shaved, I couldn't stand the beard being long and I was happy to be able to bathe finally because I was smelling after two weeks but also because I was feeling capable of doing something after loosing muscle mass and not having energy.

One thing about loosing muscle mass in such a short amount  is that the bare minimum tasks such as driving or picking up groceries in the supermarket are almost impossible to do. Around a week later I went to Aldi's and tried to pick up some groceries, I drove there and it felt wonderful but grabbing the basket back home became a problem because it felt heavy and I was out of breath with something that never bothered me to do.

Is been two and half weeks since I am back at work and it still a struggle to grab the energy but is not as it was two weeks ago and every day it feels somewhat better.

Tuesday, February 27, 2024

The History of Super Mario RPG


As time pass by and with the release of the Mario RPG remake for the Switch, it made me wonder about preserving the history on how this game was made and the legacy that generated over the last 28 years.

To think of Mario RPG is to see a legacy within the Mario IP, the influence goes with the Paper Mario and the Luigi & Mario games that spawned several sequels over the last 30 years on different Nintendo consoles.


When the game was released in Japan, it sold 1.47 million copies; the release in the United States surpassed the sales expectations of Nintendo of a target of 500,000 units making it the sixth best selling game of 1996 in the United States and also the last game to be released for the Super Nintendo by Square in North America.

The game was released in Europe and Australia much later, on August 22 of 2008 with the port of the game for the Virtual Console of the Wii and subsequent the port was released on September the 1st of 2008 in North America.

The conception of the game came from the idea of Shigeru Miyamoto to create an RPG using Mario and the joint effort of Square to create an RPG property that could make it in the international grounds outside the Final Fantasy and Secrets of Mana series. The collaboration and development began as early in 1994 after a business meeting between Square and Nintendo.

The process of choosing the mechanics and how the game was going to look i.e. the isometric 2.5 view that is present, was chosen to make it more vibrant with the 3D scanned models of the characters and environment, similar as the Donkey Kong Country games for the Super Nintendo which used 3D rendered model for character creation and scenarios.

Super Mario RPG was unveiled at the V-Jump Festival of 1995, which by October of the same year Square cited that the game was over a quarter complete.


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Monday, February 26, 2024

Nothing happened

Nothing happened, we just postpone it. There is no need to rush especially when finances are rough, we still we have each other, there will be one day soon in the time that will come.

Tuesday, February 20, 2024


     I've been going through a lot in the last three years, it has been a period that I wouldn't even survive if it wasn't for friends who were there in times of need. I am thinking how much I lost but at the same time how much I earned through the mere fact of living, living is one of the most revolutionary things you can do in this world.

    In a little bit over 24 hours we will be applying to a marriage license, I honestly thought that wasn't going to happen ever, I was in a state of fear and survival and I finally feel is leaving my existence. I'm thinking how much life has changed in the last 14 years, more to be precise in the last 16. 15 and a half years ago I was arriving to the United States in an airplane by Avianca, the views of the keys are one of the first memories I have from that period of time, then the metropolis that is Miami-Dade, then the long road we took to Tampa Bay, then back to Miami, then back to Tampa, from Tampa eventually Gainesville and later in the outskirt's of the aforementioned city.

    Is a long road from Cartagena to where I am now, yet it feels that tomorrow was only yesterday and yesterday wasn't 16 years ago but rather a couple of nights ago. I am trying to think what I have done to survive, and yet I want to stop thinking about surviving and simply enjoy life like anyone else. I've been with Josh for 14 years at this moment that you are reading this, it hasn't been easy as the two of us we have struggled with mental health over the years but since the two of us going to treatment there has been a change.

    My biggest fear when I started my own family was if I was going to repeat the same mistakes my progenitors did? I didn't knew, my parents made a lot of mistake same as my grandparents, they pushed people out of their lives out of mere pettiness, I did for a long time the same thing as them and pushed people out of my life because I didn't see them use in my life, and saw the idea of family as a façade to hide any behavior, I knew I had my own little family and yet I neglected it for a good number of years because I was scared of the concept based on my previous experiences.

    I never imagine getting married, this is as public as I plan to do it, and yet on 2/21/2024 we are going to be getting a marriage license and that's a big step because my relationship is not the same as my progenitors where time was nothing and there was no meaning of living and learning together. I don't know what life will bring, nobody knows but I feel at peace that I am living mine to the fullest because a lot of people in the community couldn't be their own authentic selves. I don't know how to say it, but living to the fullest is an act of revolution. 

Friday, December 8, 2023

A Current Analysis to the Four Freedoms, Part One


Freedom of Speech
The four freedoms by Norman are series of painting that after 50 years they have some relevance because they are based on the peril of the world versus an idealized version of what constitutes the life in the United States.

As I turn older, I see Freedom of Speech from the series of four the most prevalent one because a lot of people in the last 8 years can't dissociate that with freedoms there are consequences. The art of Norman Rockwell comes from an idealization back when reality was more dual in terms of social development and equity to all of the citizens.

I personally love the art of Norman Rockwell because from a commercial and marketing point of view it encompass a sense of nostalgia that transcends time and encompass a sole root in the Americana Pop Culture. From an art analysis there's a polarization in the Rockwell paintings because of the message they give as sucrose but instead we need to look him as a painter that was a byproduct of his time and worked towards the war efforts and reconstruction of the United States towards his art.

Freedom of Speech is one of my favorites, it juxtapose with the today ideal of freedom that we have to speak what we believe but a lot of people forget there are consequences towards the speech we can give. The composition of the painting follows a triangular pyramid order which centers the figure of the man as the main focus for the viewer, the hierarchy is really simple but effective because we as viewers we can see the story and how people are focused at the main character who is exercising his freedom of speech yet we don't see discomfort on any of the other faces but rather a complacent crowd who seems to agree with him.

I am trying to think that today we can found a similar aspect in which being complacent goes with accepting unwanted behavior such as accepting Neo-Nazi's ideologies because they are protected under the constitution, there is no freedom without consequences and that goes beyond the idyllic idea that we live in a perfect country because we don't. The ideas from Norman Rockwell comes from a time where the exchange of information was limited by how far people could interact, a time without the Internet where you could have pen-pals but your sources come from local and regional media to know what was happening around your community and not even in an international grounds.

Is hard to think of a time where people were naïve but it existed, it was a frame of human history that isn't far away from contemporary times, we can think of the concept back in the early 1980's up to the mid 1990's where the last time where communication was centralized and freedom of speech was influenced as far as we could reach.

Tuesday, December 5, 2023

Tyra and James

I found the story of James William Ross a.k.a. Tyra Sanchez quite interesting because it shown the paths that can lead after fame. I am going to be updating this profile as I get more information because there is not enough information to find online.

I didn't knew King Tyra was a neighbor, still I find that fascinating that I had the chance to say hello to one of the most iconic performers in the scene of Drag Race. The first time I heard Tyra was living near us was when my fiancé mentioned that we were going to be living near a celebrity, a piece of information he got from a friend who also lives in the same are as us. I had to ask Josh to be more precise because I never guess properly and then he mentioned we live in the same place as Tyra Sanchez, and yes I was surprised because I never expected that.

Josh then explain to me that Tyra had some issues with the law around Bradford County and he was arrested after an incident with protesting and having disorderly conduct, the part that got me was a few weeks later while we were heading back home we saw someone in one of the intersections of town protesting against the police with a very colorful outfit and I wish I had taken a photo, Josh ask me if it was OK if we could bring them water and we stopped at the closest pharmacy and we got some water and give it to the protestor.

We weren't sure that was him, but Josh was happy we could support someone who is queer and as well protesting against the police of the county, until a few days later out of curiosity I started to check online and it matched all the information with dates that the person standing in the corner protesting was Tyra himself and found out the charges placed during the first week of July were dropped as in the second week of June she was sporting a sign that was aimed at the police of Starke, Florida saying he is a free person and out of charges.

This is where I finish this entry until I can gather further information and be able to expand this entry

Recordando a Rolando


    Rolando siempre tendra 43 años, en tres años yo tendre la edad de Rolando, es tan raro pensar que un dia yo sere mas viejo que mi profesor y algun dia los dos estaremos en las memorias de la gente. En este momento han pasado 16 años, 17 ahora en Febrero 23 del 2024 y todavia el crimen no ha sido resuelto y la Policia Metropolitana de Cartagena no se ha disculpado por el discurso homofobico diciendo que el crimen fue un crimen pasional, pero nadie ha sido juzgado y la memoria de Rolando sigue manchada debido a la actitud.

    Honestamente despues de casi 20 años la respuesta al crimen sigue en el limbo. Se sabe que fallecio debido a un arma blanca, el posible sicario tenia accesso a la casa donde vivia Rolando y que la Policia Metropolitana no hizo absolutamente nada en frente a un pronunciamento y a lo largo de este tiempo no han habido avances y cada vez que los años pasan se hace mas dificil encontrar coherencia a una respuesta del crimen.

    En el año 2014 el caso fue asignado a un fiscal que era destacado en casos de violencia contra la poblacion LGBTIA pero de acuerdo al Caribe Afirmativo 16 años despues no habido un avance significativo. De acuerdo con testigos que vieron el cuerpo de Rolando, vieron que el cuerpo presentaba heridas en la cabeza que problablemente fueron causadas con un martillo que fue un punto que los testigos y el reporte policiaco tuvieron en comun.

    El Estado a lo largo de los años no ha hecho mucho, y la sombra que la policia Metropolitana de Cartagena dejo como un caso de maricones debido a que no le vieron importancia y no habido rasgos de voluntad de justicia por parte del Estado Colombiano.

    Es escabroso pensar que la policia sencillamente justifico el asesinato como un caso pacional y que todavia el culpable sigue en la impunidad. Recordando claves del caso, unos meses antes Rolando fue robado utilizando escopolaminas y recibio amenazas debido a su labor de defensa de los derechos humanos de la poblacion LGBTIA el cual tenia un programa radial en Cartagena.

    Su cumpleaños era el 24 de Febrero, su pareja de 23 años Edgar Plata recibio una llamada que Rolando no estaba respondiendo el celular y que algo malo le habia pasado, la mejor amiga de Rolando Claudia fue la que identifico el cadaver de Rolando, y el Coronel de la Policia Carlos Mena Bravo llego a la escena y en frente de los medios de comunicacion nacional y regionales dijo que el ciudadano llevaba una vida desordenada y la razon del caso fue promiscuidad lo que lo llevo a su deceso.

    La declaracion del General causo indignacion porque se supone que la policia tiene que proteger las garantias de las victimas y no vulnerarlos para justificar los hechos, en los ultimos 16 años el General nunca se retracto acerca de sus comentarios y de acuerdo con un articulo de hace 7 años del periodico El Espectador en el 2016 los casos de violencia policial contra la poblacion LGBTI con 135 casos minimos.

    El proximo 23 de Febrero del 2024 sera el cumpleaños numero 58 de Rolando, pero por siempre seran 43 años.